The Christmas Spirit
It’s a funny thing, the ‘Christmas spirit’. People talk about having it, not having it, losing it, finding it once more… It’s one of the few times we give general good will, companionship, love and giving a label.
I didn’t have the Christmas spirit until about two hours ago. You see, I’ve been feeling depressed. Mr. JM and I haven’t really been connecting as well, I’ve been missing snow and been on an anxiety high for the last week while waiting for his present to arrive in the mail (his second present – the first hasn’t arrived and it’s Christmas Eve)… There were a lot of things that, in my eyes, weren’t going ‘right’ enough for me to feel Christmassy whatsoever.
So what happened about two hours ago?
Mr. JM came home early from work with my favourite wine, wrapped Christmas presents and groceries enough so we don’t have to go out for anything until New Year. (Well, I don’t. Mr. JM works Monday to Wednesday next week.) We have plenty of groceries, grog, Christmas treats and starting today, a lovely long weekend to spend with each other.
When I saw him unloading all these things from the car, I felt all my leftover anxiety fly away and excitement for a wonderful weekend ahead bubble up in me. As corny as it sounds, I remembered how much this whole ‘thing’ is supposed to be about spending time with the person/people you love.
It’s just Mr. JM and me for Christmas, and I’ve finally remembered that’s all I need for a wonderful holiday.
Now, you’ll have to excuse me if I don’t post a lot for a while. I reckon you’ll understand.
Best wishes,
JM
December 24th, 2008 at 11:12 am
I haven’t had any christmas spirit until yesterday. We had a couple of friends over during the afternoon and just hung out and I started mellowing out a bit. Then this morning, both kids were in bed with us and we were all snuggled together and everything felt good.
December 28th, 2008 at 6:29 pm
Aw, that sounds lovely.